Tania 3
2004-02-23 at 7:19 p.m.
Written to me in Year 11 maths.
T- No one believes what Aram did to me do they?
G- I dunno. I do though, I think they do, u beter ask them.
T- But I hate talkin bout ut, especially to Frankie cos she jokes bout it and asks stupids qu.
G- O well, u should still ask though if you wanna know. What does she joke about? WHY diddn't u tell NEone after? EG: ur mum, bro?
T- Cos for some reason I diddn't feel to and It just felt like I had been beaten up. I dont think i had actually realised what had happened fully. Frankies like oh uve already lost your virginity and shit like that.
G- O, well, if you doubt they beleive you ask them, and if they dont, o well.
T- Yeh, I suppose. I doubt most people would act so normal after being raped*. I just dont know how to act cos Im not that emotional.
G- I suppose
2004-02-23 at 7:11 p.m.A letter I wrote Tania, which she replyed to.
ME- Can you explain what the problem actually is? Why are you cutting up? And why don't you wanna chat to Bell? Are you pissed with me?
TANIA- Nah, I just wanna stop hurting each other and we can't be friends. Listen, all my m8 (in class) ask y Im so quiet and its cos when ever Im round Annabell Ive started being quiet and I dont like that. I wanna be my loud happy self. Me, U, Frankie, Annabell and Dani, well, honestly I dont think we are true friends. Friends dont cuss each other over upsetting things like name calling, showing off in front of ppl by putting each other down. WERE NOT PROPPER FRIENDS.
I think if Annabell died i'd cry but I wouldn't have a broken heart. If Olga, Justina, Kim or Anna or one of them died I wouldn't be able to live I love them so much. Thats friendship. And I dont lie to Annabell. She wrote me a letter time ago telling me the truth hurts but I thought she oughta hear the truth about her.
I cut myself coz I was fucked in the head. I shouldn't do it but I was so upset and diddn't know what to do. I felt my world was screwed.
2004-02-23 at 7:03 p.m.This is something I found in Tanias Journal.
Annabell and Frankie situation.
* Me and Annabell have made up but Dani and Franke still haven't.
* We are not going to be going out together for a long time but I don't mind. Cos its about time I started hanging out with my own friends.
* But the thing that anoys me is Im still m8s with them and people treat me like im not. Eg- Laura keeps on mentioning how shes going out with them as if I care. I will have spent more time with Annabell than her in all her life so I wish she would shut up.
* Also Grace is just a Bitch, I think she was born that way.
* I admit I will miss them like Frank misses Hannah and co.
2004-02-18 at 3:41 p.m.This is my letters diary. I will eventually have all of my letters on here that people have given me. Some will make sense to you, others will not at all. You will know the ones you understand.
Grace
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